Yesterday was a blur....
I remember waking up, getting started on my work, then leaving the house...I remember going to sleep at about 2 am.
I faintly remember a voice on the phone saying
..."My kitchen is on fire."I went over the floor plan of the house in my mind. The kitchen was located between the living room and the baby's room.
I tried to call her back but there was no answer...
I remember the flashing lights, and all the people standing around.
I remember the smoke.
A mixed feeling of relief came when I saw her standing there holding my god daughter. I was glad that they were okay.
Her husband wasn't home, as usual. He wouldn't answer his phone when she called...He had been gone since the day before...
After a few hours, it was all over.
We went back into the house. The kitchen was burned beyond repair but no other rooms were damaged.
She looked at me in despair and said,
"What am I going to do. My deductible is $1500. I don't have that kind of money.?"I told her to talk to her husband first.
She said that she knew he wouldn't have the money.
I told her that I would get back to her.
I'm really in a mess. I love my god daughter, and my friend. I don't want to love them
conditionally though...But it's hard for me to give her money to help save her house
a second time, when she has a husband at home to help her. I am saving for myself. I am trying to get ahead with a lot of things that I have worked so hard to get for me and mine. I'm getting married very soon...
Is it selfish of me to be thinking of myself at a time like this? I mean, I would be helping my friend, but she is not my responsibility when you look at the whole situation. She chose to be with her husband. Although I don't get into their situation, I know that he is no good for her. He probably still doesn't know what happened to his family.
Should I help her, or should I just tell her no for a change?