We've Been Practicing...

My man is so happy...He showed me his appreciation over and over again...hence the reason I have been MIA this week. We took a couple of days off together.

We will be leaving in 3 weeks to tie the knot! I am so excited. After that I will be taking a break from blogging for a while. I have so much going on.

Enough about me..what's going on with everyone these days? Any big plans coming up?

Square One...

New beginnings can be wonderful.

But I don't like starting over...

He's got baby fever again...

This time I'm giving in...

Do I want another child? Yes...

Am I ready for one right now? I guess...

Do I want to make him happy? Always...

Will I compromise my own happiness in the process? Not a chance...

Am I happy to have his baby? Yes...


He's ready for a child. He wants to start working on it as soon as we are married. My doctor says that I am healthy and my body is ready. Mentally, I'm not sure. I know it will be different this time around. I promised to give him ONE child.


I've taken a few days to think it over. I'm going to tell him as soon as he wakes up...

Here goes...

Where Did the Good Music Go?

It's mid week and I've finally found time to post....


What are your 5 favorite songs of all time?

Who's your favorite artist?

What genre of music do you prefer?

I'm not putting down the music of today, because I find myself bobbing my head to the beat but the lyrics leave me wondering...

What do you think has caused the change?

Name a song that you think is ridiculous, but you feel yourself dancing to...or worst than that, singing all the words?

It's The Freakin' Weekend!

...and that's what I plan to do. Freak all weekend long! Spring Break is almost over and my daughter will be home soon.


In true Luvin Me spirit, I have to leave you with a question...

If you had to think of only ONE word that best describes you , what would it be and why?

My word would have to be moody. I do things when I feel like doing them, and not a moment sooner. How my day goes, depends on my mood when I wake up. People say hello to me and depending on how I'm feeling, I might say something and I might not. Get me upset and I will kill you with words. Get on my bad side and it's all over. Earn my trust , and you have a friend for life. You might like me and you might not, depends on the day. I don't say things to offend people I don't know. Most of the time, I just don't say anything. I'm not saying it's right, I'm just saying it's me.

Lazy Day...

All of this alone time with my honey is making me fall in love all over again...

Why am I so tired this morning?

Is it mid March already? Where did the time go?

Why I am wishing for Friday again?

Why is he so good to me? I know I deserve it but I had to ask...

Why am I too lazy to get up and go work in my home office?

Why am I sitting up in my bed working today?

Why didn't I buy two sets of sheets like this? It felt like sleeping on a cloud last night....I've got to go get another set...

Why did my friend tell me I have a glamorous life?

Why don't I see it?

Why do things look so much better from the outside?

Why did I find a store on the outskirts of the city that sells designer labels at discount prices that no one really knows about? Why am I keeping it to myself?

Why does my friend want me to come and pick up my goddaughter when I don't even have my own child at home?

Why am I so excited about getting married? The closer it gets to the date, the more excited I get!

Today's gonna be one of those days...

I love you with...

One whole week without my daughter...That means one whole week without dealing with her father's craziness!

Don't get me wrong, I love my child, but I love Spring Break too!

We didn't do much Friday. We just enjoyed a nice evening in the house watching movies...

Saturday morning I woke up to find that my man was already up. There was a little note on his pillow that said...I love you enough to let you stay asleep because I knew you were tired.

When I went into the bathroom to take a shower, there was a note on the mirror that said...Smile pretty lady, someone loves you.

I have terrible allergies, and he knows it. I dust everything. I can see he pays attention...

I went into the kitchen. It was spotless. He left a note on the refrigerator that said, I love you enough to make sure that the house is dust-free. All I could do was smile...

I went to find him and thank him.

The windows were open, and it was already warm outside. I can see that's going to be a hot summer if it's already this hot in the springtime.

He was sitting on the couch in the den watching TV. He never looked up. He just smiled. He had on shorts and a shirt, but the way that shirt stretched across his chest...Whew. The shirt was a melon color which contrasted so nicely with his skin and his eyes. When I walked in the room he asked if I wanted to go out to breakfast. Of course I said yes. As he walked past me he said with a smile, I saw you checking me out, and handed me another note.

It said, and I quote... I love you with...

My eyes...When I see you, I see exactly what I want, not what I have. When I want something, I know that I have to work to keep it. When I have something, I tend to forget that. So I'll never stop wanting what I see.

My mouth...When I speak to you...When I speak about you. Know that my words are filled with love because they come from a deeper place.

My hands...I touch you with tenderness. Knowing that you are strong enough to handle just about anything, but realizing that you are fragile, and it's my responsibility to make sure that you're not broken.

My mind...With every thought I realize that being with you was the best decision I've ever made...

My body...Is only for you...enough said.

My soul...I will never love another the way that I love you Pretty Lady...and I'll never have to. I know that you are the real thing. What I want. What I need. You make me want to be a better man for you and with you...We have a rare thing. Something that comes once in a lifetime. I cherish you, and I hope you feel it...If you catch me slipping let me know... Even though I feel like we are connected, I can't read your mind, and I have to know before I can act one it.

Thank you for being the woman that you are for yourself, your family, your friends, and most of all, for me... Always...Your Loverboy.

I was in tears, as I am right now reading it again for the umpteenth time. It doesn't matter how many times he tells me he loves me. It just keeps getting better that the last...

He came back in the room with his keys and a smile. He knew why I was crying...I felt it too.

We had breakfast at this nice little place in the Village...

My brother called while we were at breakfast and invited us to go fishing. I knew that we would be going because it is almost impossible to separate my man and nature and my brother knows that. I really wasn't ready to make my way back out to the cabin so soon though.
The guys fished. My brother's girlfriend and I stayed in and enjoyed some girl time. She's pretty cool...
Saturday evening, we headed home. We all decided to meet up at Ambitious' spot. It turns into a party spot after 10:00. It was packed as usual.

Sunday my parents had a big dinner at their house after church. My mother and my aunts prepared a heck a of a feast! There was food for days, and people I haven't seen in forever. I was happy to see my cousin and all of her kids. I hadn't seen them in a while. She has a new man in her life. I hope she's happy...I hope she doesn't have any more kids anytime soon either. That
usually comes when a new man comes...

My man was in heaven with my aunties. They spoil him. He doesn't have to lift a finger when he's around them and he eats it up. It was okay though. He deserves it. As usual, I was the go get it girl, but I'm used to it. Why should it stop just because I'm grown...As my mother always says, she's the same number of years older than me that she was when I was born, and that will never change.

We got home Sunday evening and capped the weekend off just right...again, and again, and again...


I am tired, but it was well worth it. As you can see, my weekend was wonderful.

I'm off to read my letter again. D*** it feels good to be in love!

Letting the Past Go...and So On

I knew that he would try something. I know him.

After all this time of my daughter's dad and I having an amicable relationship...It will never be the same.

We agreed to meet at my parent's house to drop off and pick up my daughter. We were getting ready to leave the house. The doorbell rings...

I tried to make it to the door before my man did. He was already there. When he opened the door they just looked at each other. My man spoke to him. He says he has no problem with him. He just had to show him that he meant business.

My daughter's dad just looked at him. He always has to bend the rules. I told him not to come by my house because I didn't want trouble. But he never listens. He has to do things his way when he's angry.

My man just smiled at him, but it wasn't that sweet smile that he gets me with. This smile was a nervous grin that said, Be careful, there's more where that came from.

My stomach was in knots. My daughter's dad had a terrible temper. I just knew he would try something. But he didn't. This time...

What was he thinking?

He's tries to call, I pick up the phone and hand it to my daughter.

He wants to talk, but at this point if it's not about my daughter, I have nothing to say.

He wants to know why I won't talk to him. WTH?

He wants to play games...

This is serious business.

I walked away from drama in my life a long time ago, and I'm not looking back.

He's been pulling some stupid stunts lately...Calling in the middle of the night to check on our daughter. Going by to talk to my parents about the whole mess. He knows they won't comment. They've always remained neutral. They said it's the best thing when a child's involved. Emailing me...He has lost his mind!

I can't worry about the past, it's never gonna change.

All I can do is look to the future, and hope that this fool gets some sense pretty soon.

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On another note...

I have an associate who is asking for advice.

She is dating a guy. They live down the street from each other. They have been dating off and on for about 2 years. I must say that the road has been rocky.

About a a month or so ago, she found out that he has been cheating on her with another lady on their street. When she confronted him with it, he confessed. Then he told her that he wanted an open relationship, no string attached. She didn't want to let him go, so she agreed.

A word to the wise...Never get into an open relationship with someone that you truly care about. It will never work because you'll always want more than they are willing to give.

She found out that she was pregnant 2 days ago. She was told when she was younger that she would never have kids, and up until this point, she's never been pregnant before. She wants to have a child so badly.

When she told her so called boyfriend, he told her that he really didn't want to have a kid. That's the reason he dated her, because he thought she couldn't have them. He told her that he'd quit his job before he paid for a child he didn't want.

She is so hurt behind the whole thing and the fact still remains that she is pregnant. She asks me what she should do. The h*** if I know!

What would you do in the situation?

Memo To Self...

I have made several plans in my life.

So far, I'm meeting most of my goals, but they never seem to come in the order I expect them to. I must say things have worked out for the best, but it hasn't always been easy.

I planned to...

Finish college...Establish a career...Achieve financial stability...Date...Marry..Have kids.

So much for trying to put things in order...

With that said, I've realized one thing...It doesn't matter how you get there...Just get there. Life's not perfect.

So as for now....I had a fairly good weekend. My allergies have been driving me crazy!

Since the weather was nice, we went out in our boat. I always get a little scared being out in open water like that. That's why I prefer not to go on cruises. I'd rather fly to my destination.
We went away to our cabin. Softspoken and his friend were there. Ambitious and his girl came along as well...

I relaxed and enjoyed my friends...drama free. My daughter enjoyed it out there as well...

Being out there in such a peaceful place gave me a lot of time to think, reflect, and take in everything that is going on with me now...The wilderness took it's toll on my allergies though. I had a good time while I was there, but I payed for it when I got home.

I'll be back in full force soon, and I have some things to tell as far as my man and my ex are concerned.

Until next time...

Not Feeling Up To Blogging Much...

I've been a little under the weather...But I'm feeling better today....

I hope all is well with my fellow bloggers...