I Miss Him Already...

My man had to fly out of town early this morning. He has a friend in need. His friend was in a really bad car accident last night, and they don't expect him to live. My man went to make sure that his friend's family didn't need anything. He stayed up most of the night pacing the floor. He wanted me to go but I thought it best to stay behind. I don't do well with tragedy...He will be back tonight.

I got up fairly early to drop him off at the airport. When I got home I found a card and a single calla lilly on my pillow. How did it get there? He must have put it there while I was in the shower. We were rushing to get to the airport so I didn't pay much attention to it at all.

It was a blank card that had only one line written in it. It said...Just in case I forgot to tell you before I left, I love you. I don't know why that made me cry so much. I hear those words from him all the time...

I went into the kitchen, to get me a glass of juice, and on the juice container I saw a note. It said, I knew you would come here. Just wanted to let you know that someone, somewhere is thinking of you.

I left the kitchen after I finished my juice and went to open the curtains on the windows and what do I see, a little note, just for me. It says, As you catch the morning rays, think of me, because I am thinking of you. I love the sunlight in the morning...I had to smile, he knows me so well...

I went into my office to find a note on my laptop that said, I knew you'd be here. Probably most of the day while I'm away. So as you work, email, and type away, know that someone is missing you today. I love you.

I can't help but smile for the rest of the day. All this time I was worried about him. About what he is going through. About how he is feeling, and the whole time, he was thinking of me...and you wonder why I love him so much...

Why do I love him...

Not only because he loves me, but because of the way he makes me feel.

I love the way he makes me laugh.

I love the way he can go from sweet to street in a matter of seconds if he needs to...

I love the time that he spends with me.

I love the patience that he has with me.

I love the fact that no matter where we are, he makes me feel like I am the only person in the room.

I love the way we get lost in each other, every time we are together.

I love the way he seems to know me better than I know myself.

I love the feel of his body. The way it makes me feel safe. The way it fits me perfectly in every way.

I love the 5 ct diamond bracelet that he bought me last week...just because. It is beautiful! I know that was a little vain, but I had to slip that one in.

When you have a man that showers you with love, attention, time, honesty, and gifts and great sex...It's hard not to miss him. It's not the accident that made him sentimental, he is like this ALL THE TIME. I love the fact that his love is consistent, and not just a fly by night fantasy...We do things differently. For example, we really don't celebrate Holidays like everyone else because we believe that the person you love should know that you love them everyday, not just one special day of the year. We celebrate with friends and family. We have chosen in the future to give gifts on everyday except the holiday. Now I'm not saying that me kid won't get gifts at Christmas. I'm just saying that she will know that she is loved year-round and not just have to wait for one special day to get what she wants. We are boycotting "commercial love" and reinventing "true love".

I'll have to plan something nice for him when he gets back. He'll need it for sure. I feel a little bad about not going with him, and supporting him in his time of need...We talked about it and he understands my reasoning, but I still can't help but wonder if I am giving as much as I am taking. I would never want to do that to him because he gives so much...We'll have to talk about that when he gets back...

Do the people you love know that you love them? When was the last time you told them?