Not Today!

It's a conspiracy. I think everyone I know with issues got a memo that I was getting pampered yesterday. They think I'm crazy, but no Ms. Luvin's not crazy, she just does what she has to do to take care of herself. I have had a lot of drama going on in the background that I haven't been blogging about, but believe me, it's there.

After being pampered all afternoon, I was in no mood for other people's s***. So to make a long story short, the thought for the day was, I don't care today!

I am a giving friend...Always giving of myself freely, but yesterday I was just not feeling it. My friend with the girl and the boy toy came by my house yesterday, and was trying to tell me about how his situation was working out, and you know what I said...I don't care today! Not with attitude. Just simple words. I was so relaxed and at peace with myself that I refused to allow any negative energy into my space. He gave me a look of both shock and disgust. He tried to start a little something with me. I was not going to let that happen. As he ranted and raved, I just looked at him and continued to chant, I don't care, I don't care,! It felt so good to say those words, because that is one thing that I never say to my friends. I am always the listening ear and the shoulder to lean on. But, yesterday was just not the day! I was enjoying my man and nothing was going to get in the way of that. He took his sob story and exited as fast as he entered. One down, many more to go....

Soon after he left, my cousin called. She needed a babysitter. She started telling me about how her mother had told her she would keep them, but then she changed her mind. This is how the rest of the conversation went...

Cousin: Hey Girl.
Me(In the driest tone I could muster) : What's up?
Cousin: Don't sound so happy when you talk to me .
Me(annoyed because I knew she was beating around the bush) :Okay
Cousin:What's wrong with you?
Me: Nothing. Just enjoying my day without my child (hint...hint)
Cousin: Oh, I didn't know she wasn't' there.
Me: Yep. She's with her dad.
Cousin: Well, since you are not doing anything can you watch my kids for me for a couple of hours?
Me ( in no mood to debate the fact that just because my child was gone, that she felt I had nothing to do for myself....just selfish I tell you): No, not today?
Cousin: (Whining) You know I don't have anybody else.
Me: Sorry, no can do.
Cousin: Fine, I'll just have toy change my plans.
Me: Okay girl, I'll talk to you later.
Cousin: I can't believe you are going to do me like this.
Me (the words finally came): I don't care.
Cousin(sitting on the phone for a moment in stunned silence): Okay.

...And that was the end of that.

Then came Diva...

To sum it all up, his friend is acting up and he wanted some advice. But once again, I had to give him the brush off. I wasn't as harsh with him though. I just told him that I was taking a day off from drama and spending time with my man. He looked at both of us. He was pissed because I didn't want to hear what he had to say. It's not that I didn't want to hear him out. It's just that I wanted him to come back another day....Now if you walk in the house, and you see atwo people walking around in their robes late in the afternoon with candles burning, and music playing, don't sit down, don't ask questions, just get the heck out of there. By the way we were looking you could tell that we either had just finished doing something and we were working on something else, or something was about to go down. Either way, we were trying to get him out of there. I just politely told him that I would call him later, and he left. He was angry, but guess what, I didn't care.

One of my man's brothers stopped by... And YES he is almost as fine as my man. They look just alike. He had been calling my man, but had the phones turned off. My man's bougie mother had sent his brother to look for him. My man didn't leave to go see her or call her because it wasn't an emergency. She just wanted to talk to him because she hadn't talked to him all day. He told his brother to tell his mom that he would call her tomorrow. His brother sighted. I know she is going to be ticked off. she always is when it comes to me. I am the ONLY person that he will put his mother on hold for. He left, and my man's mom called a few times during the course of the evening, but we didn't answer. I'm sure she'll have a few choice words for both of us, and believe me, I'll have a little something waiting on her too. I have to stand my ground with her now, before I am in the family! I don't disrespect her, I just tell her how I feel and move on.

We got a couple more visits, but I didn't answer the door...they'll all come back with their problems later... The doctor was OUT yesterday!

This morning, I am relaxed, and I feel great. I am sure they will all be little salty about my attitude yesterday, but they have to learn that MY time is MY time, and now that I am in a relationship, when he requires my time, he comes first( other than my child of course). I am not giving out any explanations as to why I behaved the way I did. I don't think it's necessary. I'll just hear to what they have to say, give me two cents, and send them on their way. Hearing what they say, but not really listening to it all. Today I am like a rubber ball. I'm not allowing any negativity to permeate my brain. I'm sure the responses from my friends will be another post all together.

Don't you hate it when people take your kindness for weakness?

Don't you hate it when people are selfish and feel like you should always be there for them, despite the fact that they are rarely any help to you in your time of need?

Don't you just love taking the time to say, I don't care?