He's Back

He's back, but his friend didn't make it, so he is a little down . Most of my day will be spent with him. Giving him the opportunity to vent, or just holding him giving him the silent support that he has grown to love. He doesn't talk much when he's down, but I can tell by his movements exactly what he needs. When he lies on his back with one arm behind his head and the other resting on his chest, he just needs some time alone. He won't say it, but I just know. I know when he wants to be held, even when he is hungry...I know when he needs me. He tries to be a man and support me all the time, but I have to show him what being in love is all about. It's give and take. Right now he needs me, and I am there for him, in any way he needs me. He still hasn't slept much, which has me a little worried. I finally got him to eat something though, so that's a start.

Just when everything was going perfectly...All of sudden he has baby fever. I don't know if it's the weather or what, but he has been talking about it a lot lately. Now with his friend's passing, he keeps talking about how his friend didn't get the chance to leave his legacy on the world. We agreed that we would be married at least 3 years before we started thinking about a baby, but he is trying to change the plan...What to do? What to do? I love kids, I really do, but starting all over? I don't know if I can handle that type of pressure right now. Of course when I have the kid, he wants me to be a housewife. Not that I wouldn't mind being home all day while my man takes care of me, but the late night crying, feeding, changing...I don't miss it one bit. I also love the thought of making my own money. We are getting married in a couple of months, so I still have a little time to think. He can talk me into a lot of things but that is one thing that I refuse to be talked into. I'm the one who will have to have the child, quit my job, and put everything on hold...He says that we have the ideal household for a child to develop into a happy, healthy individual. I agree, but am I ready? I love him, but I can't help but be a little selfish on this one...

So, what do you think? Would you do it?