No Regrets...

I am in a sappy mood today. Must be the weather....


I remember the first day we met. He was with his boys. I was with my girl. He passed by my table, and I looked up for just a moment. We made eye contact. There was definitely an attraction, but I didn't think much of it.

One of his boys approached our table, interested in my friend. She liked him too. So they exchanged numbers. He came by just as we were finishing our meal. He said, "how are you ladies this evening?" I could tell he was nervous, but he kept it cool. After brief conversation he laid his card down on the table in front of me and walked away. He was cocky, but not conceited. Sure of himself...He was very good looking, but I have had several pretty boys in the past so that was not enough to hook me...Well the dimples got me a little bit...

I held onto his card, but I didn't call. Not because I didn't like him. Just because I knew that a man that gorgeous had to be trouble. I was in a good place, enjoying the single life, and I didn't want him to wreck my flow.

One evening out of the blue, he calls. He got my number from my girl that was now going out with his friend...After a long conversation, he invited me to a party that he and his friends were throwing. It was cool, and I had a ball. We danced most of the night. I left the party feeling good, but still scared to deal with him. He was too perfect...

After about a week of him calling and me never returning his calls, my girl calls me to see what's wrong. I told her how I felt and she told me to go for it. So I called him.

I could hear the surprise in his voice. I was skeptical...He invited me to his place. I was impressed, but still cautious. As I said before...too perfect. That night, I had sex with him. Good sex. He wanted me to stay, but I got up and left. After that, he saw that I wasn't looking for a relationship, and he became by sex buddy. I called him...he called me...and it was on.

One night, after we had both taken a shower, he sat down on the bed. My heart was pounding because morning was approaching fast and my daughter would be up soon. At the time, I had rules...He had to come over after she went to bed, and had to be gone before sunrise, but he was stretching them... He said, "why do we keep playing this game. I like you a lot, and I know you like me. I'm single and so are you. We're only sexing each other...so let's take it to another level. I promise you won't regret it." I was nervous for the most part, but I did it. Soon after that, he met my child and it's been an uphill journey since then. We have had a few obstacles, but we have made it thus far... I won't say that he is my soul mate. I don't even know that there is such a thing. But I do believe I found the person that was created for me...the dimpled smile still gets to me...

We are sitting here doing our regular morning routine. There is NO talking going on. I am not a morning person, and they know better...He's sitting across from me eating his breakfast. My daughter is at the other end of the table trying to get the prize out of the box of cereal even though she's not eating it(note to self...don't eat the Captain Crunch) and I am typing away on my laptop, drinking herbal tea. It's supposed to be a warm day today and we are all going out later this afternoon.

Moments like these make me cherish what I have. As I look at my child I realize that I made the right decision. Though I was young and scared and I had a big choice to make. I didn't have 2 nickels to rub together, but I chose to keep her. I look at those eyes staring back at me, and I'm glad I made the right choice.

He's looking at me as I am staring at my child, as if he knows exactly what I'm thinking. He reaches for my hand. He strokes my palm gently before he kisses my hand.

I have been through so much with men...and life in general. I am in a good place. My bills are paid, and I am happy. I've made some big decisions in my life, and they have worked out good for me.

I chose to bring my child into this world...I chose to work my way up, and go out on the limb for a better job...I chose to buy a home...I chose to finally trust what a man told me...I'm glad I did!


What decision(s) have you made in your life (even though they may have been hard) that you don't regret...