The Morning After....

My friends and I had a great party! I have so much work to do, but I am exhausted! Yesterday, I saw the two men I care about face to face. I was really not ready for this moment yet, but it happened. My daughter's dad was running a little late yesterday. He was taking his favorite 'little' girl to the movies. Well, during the time that I was waiting for him, my current boyfriend came over. He said he came early to help me with any last minute details I might have for the party. My daughter does not know him. She came in, and being the diva that she is, she wasted no time introducing herself to him. They hit it off very well. They went into the front room and talked. In the mean time, my daughter's dad rings the doorbell. He walks into the front room and there is daughter is talking to my new beau. I cannot describe the look on his face. My daughter runs to him in her normal overly dramatic fashion. She then introduces him to her new 'friend'. They shake hands, and just stand and stare at each other for a moment, saying nothing, just looking. Both are very nice looking, tall, in shape...What are men thinking at this point?

My heart is pounding because I have never been in this situation. My daughter has never seen me around any other man (other than my friends) except her father, but she was cool with it, He Was Not! My daughter's dad walks to me and asks if he can talk to me alone for a moment. We step into my office. He stares at me with those hazel eyes, and for a moment saying nothing, and I can't breathe( he has always had that affect on me). He begins to rant and rave about my boyfriend being around his daughter! I am not one for drama, so I let him finish. He has had a girlfriend for 2 years, and she has been around my daughter all this time. I never said a word. As long as she is good to my kid, I am cool with it, but why the double standard? He then tells me that he forbids me to see this man or have him around my kid, so now I'm like WTF? Forbid? Is he jealous? Is this just a man thing? I let him know that this man will be in my life(which includes my daughter), and there is nothing that he can do about it. He turns and walks away with a looked of sadness mixed with rage. He walked into the front room where my daughter and boyfriend are, and put on a damn Oscar performace, smiling, telling my boyfriend that it was so nice to meet him, and acting like he is the world's greatest father( he's a good dad, but is all that necessary?).

After he leaves, I fill my boyfriend in on MOST of the details of our conversation, and now he is silent. From the look on his face, I couldn't figure out if he was mad or ready to walk away. (Oh, ye of little faith!) He turned to me and said, "I'll do whatever it takes to love you and that little girl." (and he and my kid just met!) I was alost in tears. I told him that it might be hectic for the next couple of months because my daughter's dad will stop at nothing to get what he wants. My boyfriend then said. "He's never dealt with me. As long as you are down for me, I'll have your back." Damn I love this man!

My friends came over and the party was wonderful. Everyone was behaving and we had a nice time! He made quite an impression on my cirlce....He's in!

As we are cleaning up after the party, I go into my office to turn off the light and noticed a letter on my desk. It was from my daugther's dad, but where did it come from. Had I been so shocked at how he was acting that I didn't notice? I begin to read the letter, and in the letter he is pouring his heart out to me. He is telling me how he wants to try to be a family for my daughter. This letter was written before the whole incident, but he still left it for me. I thought that he was over me, but i guess not. I thought many times in the past that we could work things out, but it never worked! But what about his girlfriend?

I put the letter away with mixed emotions and went back to my boyfriend. He looked at me and smiled. At that moment, all the doubt that I felt was gone. I knew that I had made the right decision and he was the right choice.

I went to bed, but got no sleep. He wore me out, over and over again! Where does he get the energy? We slept for about an hour, got up, took a shower, and he left for work. Now here I am in a zombie-like trance posting about my day. This is going to be a long day...

In the back of my mind, the little voice in my heard keeps saying...what if? I still can't help but think that things could work out for me and my daughter's dad. We were young and not ready for resposibilty when she came into the world. But could it be different now that we are older? I know I'm going to have to talk to my daughter's dad about this at some point, but not anytime soon. I have a lot of thinking to do. I guess I'll just leave this one to time.

Have any of you ever been in compromising situations? What did you do?