Happy

I am loving my pool and privacy fence...The things that we did in that back yard last night should be against the law!

There is something different about me. I can see it in the way I walk...talk... look. Even in the way I give a slight smile to others when they speak(and you know I am not the friendliest person). I am starting to see an inner glow that wasn't there before. I have stress all around me but I feel like it is standing still and I am moving forward. I have been through a lot of things, but today, it doesn't bother me. I have been hurt by so many people, but for some reason, I don't even remember the pain. This morning, I looked in the mirror and realized that I am on the right track. Forgiving others...Loving me...Letting it all go. Today I realized, that I am happy.

Do people really know what it means to be happy? I don't think so. Many people think they know, but they have no idea what true happiness is. How can you know something that you have never felt? I thought I knew, but I am just realizing that I was content with my life, not happy. Today I can say that I am truly happy. I know this because...If my man were to walk out the door right now, I would still love him, but I could let him go. Not because I want him to leave, but because I am happy with myself. I am glad that he is here with me, and I would hate to see him leave, but I could do it. He adds to my happiness, but he is not the sole reason that I am happy.

We often think that...If I find that special someone, I'll be okay. If I can get with the right man/woman, I can feel the type of love I hear people speaking about. If I could only get the right person in my life, things will change for me. It's NEVER going to be that way! As long as you allow people to come into your space and you allow them to adjust your space to make them comfortable, you will never find what you are looking for. You have to find someone who fits in that space. Like a piece to a puzzle. There will be minor adjustments...compromises...but your happiness will never be sacrificed in the process.

My mother taught me to always be at a point to where I could take care of myself without needing anyone else. At first I thought she wanted me to be alone for the rest of my life. I soon realized she didn't mean for me to be independent to the point to where I was detached from reality. She just meant that I should never be physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, or spiritually dependent on another person. She wanted me to know me, and love me, like no one else ever will.

When you have someone in your life who loves you for you....It's an indescribable feeling. My man and I are both complete individuals. We are free. Do you know what it feels like to be free of everything? We don't need anything from each other, yet we give everything to each other. It's so much easier to give a person what they desire when it is not turned into a necessity. I am not needy at all...and it turns him on to no end when he tries to give me money and I turn him down. Now I know he will make sure I get it in some way or another (buying me gifts), but the fact that I only take from him what I need makes him desire me even more.

My friend in the hospital is doing better. So far, things are looking up...I talked to her husband yesterday for about 2 hours...alone. He got a chance to express how he felt( sad, mad, scared, confused). He is a basket case, but around her he is a pillar of strength. He has been by her side through the whole thing. One thing is for sure, my friend knows what it feels like to be loved. I think she knew the secret a long time ago. I'm just now catching up...

What type of men/women do you attract?

Why do you think that those types of people gravitate towards you?

What do you do to keep positive people in your life?

How do you get rid of the negative people around you?